Friday, July 18, 2014

Loss and Reflection

You know how some people have such amazing strength of character, leadership ability, and love that when she gets a bad health diagnosis, you just think she will beat it?  Because how could someone that strong not overcome?  And then she doesn't.  And you are just a little bit shocked.  How is it possible?  For someone not as strong and fearless and driven maybe but this person?  It's just not quite right.  Yet, she is still gone.  I really thought this amazing woman I knew would overcome, mostly because she was so driven and didn't take no easily.  Unfortunately, the disease was stronger.  Cancer sometimes is. 

A woman I considered a pillar in my field - a mentor, colleague and leader - has been fighting for her life.  Unfortunately, she lost that fight.  But I'm certain she did it with valiance and dignity, because that's how she lived her life.  And although she's gone, her legacy will live on.  She touched literally thousands of lives.  Some might not even know her name but she impacted their destiny.

You will not be forgotten my friend.  Thank you for the life you lived and for the grace you showed all of us.  Rest in peace. 

Monday, July 14, 2014

Four Months

To my Little Love--

Today you are four months old!  I can hardly believe it.  This past month you have really mastered the rolling from back to front thing.  You're still struggling with rolling from front to back.  You have some of the motion down but can't quite get there! 

More and more, you are responding with the greatest of delight to Daddy and me.  When he walked in the house yesterday, you immediately lit up.  It's so awesome to see how much you love him.

You're also talking more.  Babbling takes up so much of our day and I love our "conversations."  

You seem to recognize my phone when I'm taking your picture.  I'm not quite sure if that's a good thing or bad thing but man, it helps get some photos of you looking directly at me!  

You started at daycare two days a week this month and seem to like it.  You are the type of kid that will go to anyone and the teachers seem to think you are a happy, agreeable little baby.  I'm happy for the opportunity for you to interact with other kids and know we'll have to find a Mommy and Me class once I'm not working anymore. 

You just had a bad cold (caught at daycare no doubt!) and oh, it was hard to watch because the cough was so bad.  Luckily, it didn't last long and although still congested, you're doing much better. 

Happy 4 months Little Guy!  You have enriched Daddy's and my lives so much in just this short time and we love you oodles! 

Your Mom

Friday, July 11, 2014

Crazy Energy

Both kids were a little overexcited last night.  It was to the point where I was wondering if there was a full moon (there wasn't).  I'm not really sure what was up but oh, the crazy energy.  There was kicking and babbling (the kid) and licking and toy shaking (the dog).  I may have had to yell "no" a few times as Rosy's over-enthusiasm started making her get a wee bit too close to stepping on the kid. 
I do have to wonder what will happen when we actually do have a full moon! 

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Randomness for Your Thursday

  • The kid has been sick with a cold.  It's nothing too major but I ended up keeping him home from daycare today as he has one of the symptoms they say your kid can't have and be there.  He's still a very happy little guy despite the coughing and congestion.  
  • Rosy finally went to the groomers yesterday.  She's looking all clean and pretty.  
  • I'm in need of a nap.  But I've found that trying to nap when the kid does never works.  Mostly because he'll cry out in his sleep periodically.  
  • Photo from our wedding.  This little finger puppet was on the kid's table of goodies!
  • I really need to sew the curtains for the dining room.  I'm not sure why I'm procrastinating.  I know I'll be quite pleased when they are done.  
  • My family Christmas is upcoming (we celebrate together in the summer, when we can do it outside, as there are too many of us for anyone's home!).  I did a good amount of shopping last night. Thank goodness for Amazon.  
  • My dining room is a disaster.  We have too much stuff and not enough space for it.  I am having a yard sale in August but we'll still have too much stuff.  One of us is more of a pack rat than the other.  
  • I've been posting a lot on Instagram lately.  Check it out for what's really up in my life there. 
  • I've been doing a pose a day yoga thing for my local studio.  It's been good to integrate at least a little yoga in each day.  I can't do today's pose (headstand) but think I might find something else to do today so I've still done a pose.  
  • I need a massage.  I have a gift card to Massage Envy but just need to find time to use it.  Oh, first world problems I know.  
  • I made a good pork BBQ last night from this pinterest recipe.  It's good, although a sweet bit sweet.  
  • I really like meal planning a lot more than I ever would have guessed.  
  • I haven't knit in forever.  I need to find a good, somewhat not complicated pattern to inspire me.  And something that uses yarn I already own in order to save money and clean out stash!  
  • I miss date night with my love.  We haven't really had one since our minimoon post wedding.  I need to make that a priority!
That's all folks..... hope you are having a good Thursday!  

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Their Relationship

People often ask "how's Rosy doing with your son?" There was also much advice and questioning before he was born.  Rosy has always been a gentle soul and very omega so I was pretty sure she'd be good with him.  And she is.  She is his constant companion.  She loves lying under his swing in the living room or hanging out next to him when he's on the floor.  His feet are the best thing to lick.  And she licks more when he's crying, as if she's trying to find a way to comfort him. 
When he's on the floor and kicking, she'll even get kicked while trying to lick him.  Honestly, she's so amazing and I'm just so impressed and happy that she loves him so.  I was worried that getting less attention might make his joining the family less awesome in her eyes.  Overall, it's all good though. 

I'm looking forward to watching their relationship continue to develop.  When he starts getting more active and perhaps pulling her ears or tail, will she be calm?  I believe so but only time will tell for sure.  All I can say is I love these two kids of mine.... and their relationship with each other. 

Monday, July 7, 2014

My Heart

This boy. He has captured my heart. Sweetness, grumpiness, laughter and tears. 
I am so utterly blessed. And happy! 

Friday, June 27, 2014

Mid Year Check In

In January, I said my year theme for 2014 was Possibility.  I thought it would be good to do a little mid-year check in to see how I'm doing with that. Possibility was about embracing the changes before me.  There were those anticipated - motherhood and marriage.  Obviously, I've hit a few stumbling blocks in each area.  There is a big learning curve.  I think I'm being the best mother to Chase I can be.  I would never have qualified as the most patient person but with him, it is great.  I adore his little face and rejoice in each morning with him.  My marriage doesn't feel that much different than co-habiting, just a bit more formal.  Well, and there's the name change.  I ultimately decided to change my last name to make it easier on the kiddo down the road. 
But others have presented themselves as well.  At the end of July, I'm embracing the opportunity to stay home with Chase.  I never thought I'd stay home.  But the chance is there and I so want to be the driving force in his development and growth.  And it is Possible. Luckily, I'll probably continue on with my employer, although part-time, through at least September so the transition should be easier. 

There's a lot more possibility too.... with a new kitchen, I'm cooking more and we've hosted a few parties.  The kitchen and open floor plan make that more feasible.  There are new and revised friendships... things that have evolved post-baby or or being resurrected.  There has been some crafting. 

Possibility is definitely happening.  Although, I will admit, I'd like to see myself embrace it even more for the second half of the year and really shake things up and make things happen.  Fingers crossed I do! 

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Back to Yoga

Since I was cleared for exercise six weeks after Chase's birth, I've been trying to get back to a regular yoga practice.  I'm a happier, healthier person when I'm doing yoga regularly.  And I need to rebuild some strength post-pregnancy.  During my first trimester, my doctor scared me off exercise with cautionary tales.  After miscarrying with our first pregnancy, I was easily scared.  That is definitely something I regret about my pregnancy because all of the research tells us yoga is good for a pregnant woman and makes delivery easier. 

I will say it's been hard to get back at it.  Although I'm lucky there is a studio two blocks from my home, I haven't always been good about dedicating myself to my practice.  As I'm sure you can imagine, I'm often tired.  (Wait, having a newborn makes you tired?  WHAT???)  So easily that can become the excuse for skipping my own self-care. 
I'm blessed with a great partner that realizes why doing yoga is important for me.  He makes my practice a priority.  I'm so grateful that he prompts me to go.  And so, it's back to the mat tonight! 

Monday, June 16, 2014

Father's Day

We had a great Father's Day yesterday.  The day has always been a bit bittersweet for me as my dad died when I was 14 and my stepfather, a second father, passed when I was 28.  Thankfully, I had a great reason to celebrate this year.  Plus, we had the distraction of the kid's christening and a small family party afterwards. 
I don't have any photos from the christening, as I didn't think to give anyone my phone.  But, it was lovely to be surrounded by family and celebrating one of our little one's first rites of passage.  And afterwards, there was cake with buttercream frosting. 

The kid also showed off his great rolling over skills later on that day.  And the legs are a movin'.  It's only a short while before he starts moving for real.  I'm both excited and terrified.  Terrified mostly because our house is not baby-proofed in the least! 

Saturday, June 14, 2014

My Little Love: Month Three

Dear Chase,

You are three months old today.  You are such a joy to be with.  You love taking in the world around you.... always looking at things.  You love exploring the world so much that if we are someplace new you couldn't possibly let yourself fall asleep for fear you might miss something.  Apparently this trait comes from Daddy.  (Thanks Daddy!) 
This past month, you have found your thumb and like sucking on it when you need comforting.  Or when you're bored.  Sometimes you try to shove your whole fist in your mouth.  So far, it hasn't worked. 
Photo by K.A. Photography
You've also gotten quite good at rolling from back to tummy.  Once you get there, half the time you don't quite know what to do and get frustrated.  But, you've found that you prefer stomach sleeping.  And since you've started rolling over in your crib, you've also started sleeping seven plus hours.  That, I'll say, is kind of magical.  I do still worry about the stomach sleeping but goodness knows, I'm not going to stop you from rolling over. 

Your colic is also starting to dissipate a bit.  You are definitely happier most evenings that you were about a month ago.  For this, Daddy and I are grateful. 

Oh little one, we love you so!!  We're so glad you are part of our life.